-undescribable feeling-

seems like everything is fine a couple of days ago..
and in just a moment,,it's undescribable..
i know that it's all my fault at the first place..
and maybe i'm receiving my karma for all i've done to u..
cos,,really it looks like we're changing places now..
actually i know what i've done to u is not right since a long time ago..
and that's one reason why i wanna change..
but,,maybe that's not enough..
or maybe,,i already hurt u so much..
that makes u feel tired right now..

it's just a couple of days,,
not really a week,,
but,,i feel like i wanna quit this 'game of ♥'..
it's not that i don't ♥ u..
i ♥ u since the very first time u do sumthing to me that makes me feels like there's butterfly in my stomach..
there's a lot of little things that makes me ♥ u more..
it's just i keep it like a secret..
so,,u probably don't know about it..
it's just i easily lost my hope in everything i do,,
if i think,,i won't get what i want..
maybe u'r not agree with me,,my mommy also didn't agree with me..
but,,that's me..
'i don't wanna fight for sumthing i won't get'

since right now i'm standing in ur position,,
and ur standing in my position..
i know how hard it's for u at that time..
and i'm proud u can 'fight' for it for a long time..
it really shows how's ur feeling to me..
and i'm really thankful and flattered..
that in my life,,there's once a man that love me like u do..

actually i do really hope that everything gonna be fine..
and we're still together after all of this..
but,,just in case,,we're not..
i'm truly sorry for all i've done..
sorry for not 'fighting' hard like u used to do..
but,,i love u *maybe* as much as u love me at the first time..
thank you for everything u taught me..